Early
last week, I gave a talk on Dealing with Disappointment at a camp of this
Christian school of high school students, without much preparation (in cramming
mode actually) and just letting and trusting God to lead. I have never planned
to share how the Lord has called me through my testimony and just discuss the
usual disappointments that young people encounters nowadays and explore the healthy
ways of dealing with it. But God has His ways that is sometimes mysterious but
this time, it was inevitably surprising! And it came towards the end of my talk
when we were in time for questions.
When a
student asked me "Sir, what your biggest disappointment in life is and how
you were able to deal with it?" and immediately, I recognized that it was
the Lord who prompted that question and urged me to share. Honestly I was not
ready and like I have said it was not planned. So I paused for a very brief
moment, hoping I was wrong but surely I was not hence, I did and we were all
blessed! I must say that it was one of the shortest versions of my story I have
ever did but I guess it was just enough. It was not an HIV&AIDS workshop
anyway. I know and I am sure there were young people who were touched and
really blessed if not all of them.
Truly
the Lord never ceases to surprise me like that. Thank you Lord for reminding me
that it is not my story to tell but only yours...not meant to be kept but share.
Praise God!
The
only challenge whenever God uses us for His kingdom is that the enemy is not
happy with it. Therefore they will do whatever they can, targeting our ultimate
weaknesses to destroy us and dishearten us with our journey with the Lord
Jesus. They know exactly when and where to attack. What I am trying to say is
that…after a little more than six years of being a Christian, I still struggle
with SSA, sexual desires and other selfish stuff. Sometimes I am victorious but
there are times I am not to be honest. But God is so merciful and abounding in
grace. That even when I fail (or much better to admit I have sinned) and seemed
unfaithful, He never fails and stay faithful. Hey, that’s the best way of
dealing disappointments and failures…turning to Christ!
Oh
dear Lord, thank you for stubbornly loving an unworthy person like me. Only
You can truly change me so I will forever simply put my trust in you.
