Several
things have occurred since the last time I posted here so let me reflect on
them one by
one.
First,
I have my first couple counseling from the church that began late last year. It
was going well even if it’s a bit challenging for they are my close friends
until something happened. One person and then a couple whom they were trusting
to betrayed them with one of the issues we were working on. I am the kind of
person who highly value trust and confidentiality hence, this unexpected event
has affected me. It made me realize that even some devout Christians can be
blinded and commit wrong move by confessing someone else’s issue to church
leaders that could affect relationship without thinking the effect of their
action. And the result…conflict and broken trust and friendship.
Second,
I got invited again, that’s second month in a row, to speak before the young
people of this small church in Pasig on “Preparing While Waiting” for their
Valentine Masquerade Ball. Indeed it was truly a blessing for many who heard
God’s message through me, got inspired and felt very happy including the pastor of
the church. The young people were still raving about it and the event after few
more days according to my pastor friend. Personally, I was also blessed by the
message the Lord has led me to prepare. This was followed immediately by a very fruitful
and heart warming conversation over coffee with my newly found BFF from the
school just sharing some deepest core of our lives. All these deserve honoring
and praising God!
Third,
finally I was able to meet one the followers of this blog who was in need of a
brother to share his life with now that he is HIV+ like me. Similarly it was a
blessed time for this young man for he is carrying this new challenge in his
life very well. Thank you Lord for using this online journal to help and
inspire other people. This is all for your glory Lord.
Fourth,
truly when God use you as a channel of His blessings, the enemy is always at
work to bring you down. The cross of SSA struggle was a bit difficult for me
these past few weeks in the midst of all these events and school stuff. Whether
in thoughts, in heart or in action, sin is sin and I have not been victorious
in any of these three areas. But there’s no turning back…I have committed my
life to Him and as long as His grace and mercy and His forgiveness flows, I
will never ever give up on myself for I know Jesus will never give up on me. I
have been dealing with some disappointments from the church aside from the
above-mentioned incident. I learned I was not part of the church leadership
anymore without giving me enough reasons. I know my shortcoming if there is but
I just wish it was explained. I guess I need to apply my own teaching in
“Dealing with Disappointments” early this year and have to wait on this and
watch myself out from unhealthy thoughts and feelings. Well, God has a purpose
for everything and that I put my trust.
With
all these that have happened, I actually broke down to tears when a good friend
of mine from the church simply asked how was I a couple of Sundays ago. I
surmise everything has bottled up inside that I needed to let it out so thank
God for his shoulder to cry on and for the comforting hug. Bless you brother!
And
lastly, well it is my 37th birthday today! Thank you God for the 37
years of gift of life. I did not realize that I could reach this age after what
happened to me eight years ago. The best thing that ever happened to me was
getting to know the Lord and be chosen in spite of my unworthiness to be a part
and be in service of His Kingdom. Thank You Lord for everything especially for
continuously upholding me in your right hand.
And
to all the followers and readers of this blog…thank you and God bless!
