D R . E L R O I

A PERSONAL JOURNAL OF A MAN LIVING WITH HIV

Monday, December 30, 2019

HIV and Me – A Flashback Of The Past Decade


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Before the new decade and a new year come, let us take a quick look at some of the highlights in the past ten years of this God-blessed life.

2010 marked the beginning of my two-year work project with WVI in the Asia Pacific Region and the Philippines. Working as the Channels of Hope (CoH) HIV Coordinator has given me opportunities to work in a multicultural and international environment. It has become a training ground that enhanced my facilitation and speaking skills. Also, it has brought me to New Delhi and Jaipur City in India, Nairobi, and Mombasa in Kenya, Singapore, Malaysia, Cambodia, Busan in South Korea, Indonesia, and back in Bangkok, Thailand and Chennai, India.

My four-year journey at Asian Theological Seminary has begun in 2011. Taking up my masters’ degree in Pastoral Counseling was almost every single moment, truly a joy. Also, counseling is both a calling and a passion that God has placed in my heart.

Towards the end of 2013 was another encounter with God where He took away the shame out of being true to myself as I speak and teach about His goodness and faithfulness throughout my life. It was the year when God has shown me how I was taking the glory and honor away from Him whenever I keep untold a part of His precious story through my life where His amazing grace is so much abounding! What a tough call, however, rewarding and liberating!

The following year, 2014, was the launching of that tough call. God has sent me to Kanazawa, Japan to teach and speak the truth in love about the unrelenting issue of same-sex attraction (SSA) to more than 200 missionaries from around the globe for three consecutive weeks! It has become another training ground for honing the said gifts and fighting spiritual battles.

2015 can be considered the highlight of this decade. Three significant things took place. First, I finished my masters’ degree. Second, I passed the Guidance and Counseling licensure exam miraculously. Third, our counseling center was instituted! There was a bonus. In July of that year, I have appeared as the guest resource person in CBN Asia’s The 700 Club. I was invited to share my knowledge and research on the issue of SSA on national TV!

The beginning of 2016 was a war between life and death. I stayed in the hospital for 25 long days as I combat a number of stomach illnesses such as appendicitis, gastrointestinal infections, and pelvic abscesses to name a few. However, it was miraculous healing for God has answered my prayer to be healed without being opened! Moreover, it was a revelation of where my faith or lack thereof that has elevated my journey with the Lord Jesus to the next level. He has demonstrated through this tragic event how His Christian communities should be coming together to help someone who was sick and could be dying.

On the brighter side, 2016 was also the year where HIV Channels of Hope took off again locally through WVDF and has reached the Bicol region and Pangasinan, some parts of Visayas, and Mindanao. In addition, I got my first experience to become a part of the training team of AIDS Link International (ALI) when the seven-days CoH certification training was held in Kuala Lumpur.

Another milestone happened in 2017 when I started my doctorate studies in Clinical Christian Counseling at Asia Graduate School of Theology! Another tough call in which I have to say yes. Through Narramore Christian Foundation’s scholarship, I have a little over a year left to get my Ph.D. and be an excellent God’s “channel or agent” of healing and transformation to His people as a Counselor/Psychotherapist and Psycho-educator. Furthermore, another certification training by ALI was held in Cebu where I got my first diving experience!

In 2018 and 2019, more organizations have come to seek our partnership through our counseling center such as Philippine Retirement Authority, Church Strengthening Ministry, other programs of CBN Asia, schools, and churches. And finally, after 13 years of my diagnosis, I have shared God’s story through my life in the World AIDS Day celebration at San Lazaro Hospital before 250+ people from all walks of life! What a way to cap the year and the decade off!

Undeniably, there is so much to be grateful for the past ten years. Certainly, God’s hands were all in it and He will continue to lead the way this coming 2020 and the new decade! “As we sit on the edge of a new year, we are hemmed in by the faithfulness of God. Behind us are his wondrous deeds. Before us are his merciful plans. Both of them are marvelous and more than can be told. The past and the future belong to Him – and most importantly, so do we” (Hubbard, 2019). Soli Deo Gloria!

Friday, December 13, 2019

12 Years of Faith Journey

“Yesterday’s failures do not determine the outcome of today’s battle.” That is according to Brian Hedges. 

Every thirteenth of December marks the day when my faith journey has begun. Similar to the movie called “12 Years of Slave” or  the “12 Tribes of Israel” or the 
 “12 Days of Christmas”, it has been twelve years since I have given and surrendered my life to the one and only God’s sent Lord and Saviour for everyone. Wow! I still could not believe it! What Hedges said in the quote is true. For yesterday’s failure twelve years ago did not determine the outcome of my battles today. It is Christ Jesus who did and still do after twelve years when He found me and I started to live a life dedicated simply to honor and glorify Him.  

Looking back into those years, I could not help but feel joy, sad at difficult times such as sins and failures, and only adoration to who God truly has been and is. For this reason, I have shared this twelve-years of faith journey in more than twelve minutes to this gathering yesterday. It was my first time to speak about how my life has been for the past twelve years (actually thirteen) at World AIDS Day held in Manila yesterday. The theme for this year’s assembly is “Community Makes a Difference”. Thus, it is just fairly right to highlight the most important of all the communities that have made a difference in my life. That is the church community. 

The body of Christ has played a quite significant part of God’s story being written throughout my life. Without the church, along with my family, advocacy, and healing communities, I don’t think I would be able to have the life I am enjoying today – a somewhat happy and contented life in Jesus. From the failures of yesterday, still, I could not believe I was able to accomplish a lot of things I did not even imagine or dream of. Who would have thought that a former licensed electrical engineer would have turned into a Registered Guidance Counselor when he only desired to finish a master’s degree in counseling? Moreover, maybe I have dreamed of becoming a doctor but not a doctorate degree in Clinical Christian Counseling! So, I will be forever grateful to those people who have supported me in all these. Of course, by God’s grace, these people include my colleagues and dear friends from our counseling ministry. All these communities where I got involved with in the past twelve years have made a difference in my life very positively. 

So, not only that I have found my true calling and passion but also the real purpose of life – a God’s agent of healing and transformation for His people, a channel of God’s hope. Hence, do not worry if you have failed. It will not determine the outcome of our battles today but Jesus. Trust Him. Take it from a failure who have made victorious by the reckless and stubborn love of God. Looking forward to the next twelve years in my journey with Him. Thank you, Lord. Soli Deo Gloria!