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A PERSONAL JOURNAL OF A MAN LIVING WITH HIV

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Jehovah Shammah in Bangkok

It's my first trip abroad for this year and my third time to visit Bangkok, Thailand. Almost exactly the same time as last year when I visited this foreign land for the first time with the same purpose which is doing the "Channels of Hope " Training the Facilitators as part of the training team, only this time I acted as the lead trainer instead of being an assistant trainer!

For me this is some sort of promotion from the Lord. It was nearly three years since I was trained to be a facilitator and now I am taking bigger responsibilities. I really thanked God for the wisdom, confidence, strength and guidance from Him as I took this role. God sustained all the training team members for the whole duration of this learning event.

Once again, all of us there experienced God's presence. On the third day when I shared my testimony, it's more emotional compared to my previous trainings. Even prior to that session, the Lord was there or "Jehovah Shammah", for some of the participants realized how broken we are as a human being and only God can break us on His own unique way!

Since that day up to the last day of the training, God's presence was there! Twenty four new facilitators of God's hope went home grateful and felt very blessed! They were from Laos, Vietnam, Thailand, Philippines, New Zealand, US, Finland, Sri Lanka, Nepal, Cambodia, Indonesia and Bangladesh.

The Lord has also allowed me to take some time off after this strenuous training. I went with my friend to visit this disco club where most gay guys in Bangkok hangout. I know this was some kind of putting myself in danger and it was an unwise decision but I have proven that God is with me everywhere I go.

I have seen different good looking guys from different parts of the world and most of them are my type kind of men. But He made me realized one thing, it's not worth to have all these guys for He have shown me that all these people are His lost sons who need His light and love! Also I realized that my attraction to men has been diminished that I can just let go of them. Hopefully this will continue and lead to something I am actually destined for which is becoming the man that God wants me to be.

Well, God's name has been exalted and praised in this event once again and I am giving back all the honor, praises and glory to Him in the name of our dear Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

Jehovah Shammah!

3 comments:

stanw said...

That must have been great to lead it and to meet folks from so many different places. God does break through doesn't He when we need Him and depend on Him for wisdom and all those things you mentioned. Have a safe trip home, God bless and keep you.

stanw said...

I have been thinking over what you wrote about going to that disco. For me I thought that what you wrote concerning your experience there and what you were looking for, could give the reader of this post something that could very well put temptation in ones mind. Saying that you feel your attraction has diminished is great news but I am concerned about what will go through you mind later, times when you feel lonely, stressed, etc.. Please take care, my brother, praying you will make the right decisions in all you do, you are worth it.

E L R o i said...

Hello brother Stanw I am home now safely thanks for the prayers. Regarding the disco experience, well I am not sure I want to go back there because there's nothing there for me but yes I know what you're thinking. This could be a false refuge now that I know the place when I have the feelings you mentioned. I did not put the name of the place so people who will read this won't have any idea where it is exactly. Like I have said this was an unwise decision but sometimes I do feel the need to investigate and see things and not just be confined for what I already know. This may sound unwise again but don't worry, this advise I took from a very wise Christ centered lady who's acting now as a mentor to me. Thanks for your concern bro. God bless :)